Man,i getting ever so rebelious!
argueing with my parents,
not listening to them,
Being open defianced!!
Oh god,wth has happened to me?,
i was'nt like this in the past,
i use to be a good girl,
never talking back to my parents.
just what has cause the sudden change in me?
I remembered that at the beginning of the year,
i did what my parents told me to do,
and i did not ever defy them.
I was ever so obedient.
Even in primary school,when my seniors/teachers scolded me i was like,
not angry nor had a grudge against them,did not dare to talk back
but now?
I'm like so rebelious,
man,
scolding a teacher that offended me,
be it in my blog,or right in front of her
though i knew i was in the wrong!!
but although sometimes it just their fault!
yes,i admit myself being so xiao qi,
but for example,
if my stead had many girls surrounding or getting close with him,u would be jeolous would'n you?
Yes,i admit i would be jeolous,
who would not be jeolous?
I would try and get back at them,
i was ever so forgiving in the past,
but now?
I find it hard to forgive .
For sicko,he had hurt me,my ego,
no matter what he does,nothing would be able to repair the damage!
He sent such yucky stuff,
not thinking of what other would think about him.
he said he wanted to apologise,but what's the use?
I just want to let go myself,
being free of any troubles,
like in primary school,
where everything were forgive and forgotten.
I want to be back my old self,being all not rebelious,
scoring well marks for my subjects.
I want to be a good girl,with an open mind,
not to say anymore vulgarities,
but it's hard for a leopard to change its spot.
I just can't help it,
i just want a change of me,
is it that difficult?

ps:Gwen!!If u ever read this,can u please return me my 29.50 asapt?I'm damm broke already kays..I'm in need of $$!!arghh!!
(do she ever pays back $$)